Bailey seems to be never destined to fit in, a little geeky, but under it all, a hidden beauty that so many seem to miss, but still not what her pack Alpha is looking for in a fated mate... so he is determined to reject her and make her life hell. Bailey,...
Chapter 1 Bailey
I glanced at the clock on my bedroom wall. I’ve put off the unavoidable for as long as I could. It’s time to head to the packhouse and wish our future Alpha a happy birthday. The bane of my life. My brother’s best friend.
Today’s the big day—he’s turning 17 and about to meet his Alpha wolf. Honestly, he’s already got a pretty inflated ego, believing the universe spins around him, and now he’s about to level up with his wolf. And we’re not talking about just any werewolf here. Nope, Miles Davenport is meant to be an Alpha, which means he’s getting a seriously strong Alpha wolf, only cranking up his confidence and power even more.
It's wild to think that Miles used to be one of my best friends back in the day. When we were kids, friendships just happened naturally, especially since my dad was the Beta to the Alpha. We all hung out a lot, and that’s how bonds formed. My older brother, Jordan, was Miles' right-hand man, his go-to buddy when he needed a sidekick. But as time passed, things shifted between Miles and me.
As he became a big deal in sports at school, our friendship started to fade. It was clear he was destined for popularity; he was the next Alpha, after all. But once he hit the top as a sports star, he became a total idol. My brother was in the same boat. Girls swarmed around them like they were celebrities, and it was just strange. To Miles, I was just a joke, a geek, not one of the pretty girls who adored him. I was just there for his amusement.
In the space of a school year, I had gone from enjoying time with my one-day Alpha to hating him. He thought he was God’s gift, and in all honesty, if he was, he is a gift I would return.
“Bailey!” I heard my mom call from downstairs, telling me I was definitely running out of time. I knew Jordan had already headed over to the packhouse with my dad a while ago to meet his friend and our Alpha.
“I know,” I yelled back, looking at the books on my desk, desperate to continue with the assignment I was working on. I would so much rather continue working on the assignment and gain the additional credit available, work toward going to the college I want to go to instead of going to a party for the big-headed bully; I got to consider almost family, thinking he was the son of my dad’s best friend.
I stood from my seat and walked to my mirror, adjusting the black skater dress I had chosen to wear that day. Something plain and simple, easy to blend into the background, but a dress all the same if anyone asked why I hadn’t made an effort. Along with my chunky black sandals, I looked presentable, not that anyone would be looking at me.
Today, all eyes would be on the birthday boy, as they always were. He would make sure of that. I flicked back my curly brown hair before I walked out of the door, already dreading the hours that lay ahead.
My mom pulled the car into the parking spaces outside the packhouse while my younger sister Morgan was flicking at the curls around my head, simply trying to irritate me. She knew I would rather be anywhere but here right now and was loving every last moment of it.
“Aww, you want to go home Bailey-boo?” she teased.
“Stop you two, come on. Your Dad is waiting inside. Let us go and find the birthday boy,” mom says, sounding cheerful, completely oblivious to how horrendous this party had the potential to be. She, too, worshipped Miles.
Having seen him grow up alongside my brother, she seemed to think the sun shone out of his rear end. It had always driven me insane.
“He won’t even notice us there,” I muttered under my breath as I followed her up the steps of the back house, shaking my head at my sister and how overdressed she looked. She definitely looked like she was out to impress someone today.
A small part of me wondered if she hoped she might be Miles's fated mate. After all, he was meeting his Alpha wolf today. He will have shifted for the first time today, and today could potentially be the day he can sense his fated mate out there waiting for him!
There had been so much buzz around the school about this, so many of the girls were excited about the potential possibility they could be his destined mate—the one chosen for him by the moon goddess. The one destined to be with him.
A ton of them are really hoping it’ll be them. Meanwhile, I was wishing for the exact opposite. I couldn’t imagine anything worse! But seeing how much my little sister put into today, I’m starting to wonder if she’s one of those she-wolves clinging to that dream.
We walked through the corridors of the packhouse, which were filled with various pack members. Today was a day of celebration within the pack, the birthday of the upcoming Alpha. And not just any birthday, the day he came of age. The day he met his Alpha wolf.
The walls of the packhouse were adorned with decorations; music was blaring from various speakers dotted around the multiple rooms.
"Oops, sorry!" a laughing she-wolf exclaimed as she bumped into me, almost sending me sprawling. Honestly, I’d prefer to be anywhere else at this moment. It’s just too chaotic and way too noisy for my liking. I shot a glare at her back as she sauntered off, completely unfazed.
I followed my mom and my sister, who was almost skipping as she walked toward the main lounge area. I can only assume my mom had mind-linked my dad to let him know we had arrived, and he said they were there, or else we could spend all day looking around for them! It appeared almost every member of the pack had turned up to celebrate the birthday of Miles fucking Davenport.
The lounge area was laden with people, music truly blasting, and everyone seemed to have a good time: everyone except me. I caught the eye of my brother, leaning against the wall of the lounge, the furthest away from the door we had just walked into. He nodded in my direction before simply turning away.
‘Could have made an effort, Bailey.’ he mind-linked. ‘It is a birthday, not a funeral, you know?’
I felt my heart sink at his words. Great, the insults were starting already, which meant it would only be a matter of time until Miles began to, too. The two of them seemed to like working together like that and finding great enjoyment in harassing me.
I was only a year younger than both of them and had desperately hoped the name-calling and insulting would ease off as they got a little older, but if anything, they seemed to get worse. All because I wasn’t like the girls they were interested in; I was sure of it.
I was different from the other girls. My mom said I was an easy target just because I loved studying. I enjoyed reading and learning, but she thought I was just complicating things for myself. I was trying to figure out a way to make things easier for me.
“Jordan says your dress looks like you are going to a funeral, Bailey.” Morgan teased, fluffing up my curls again. My long brown hair fell in thick, unruly curls down my back. They drove me mad at times, especially when my brother and sister decided to mess with them.
“Oh well, I wore a dress, like you asked.” I snapped, moving away from them, feeling angry already, so tempted to turn around and walk home, only to be pulled back by my mom.
“We are going to wish Miles a happy birthday. You will stay for a while at least. I do not need to explain to your aunt and uncle yet again why you have walked out at a social event, Bailey.” Mom warned me, her tone sounding grumpy.
I swear she had to have read my thoughts about leaving the party already. I am sure she hated having me as a daughter, likely wishing for one who was more sociable and one who enjoyed being a part of everything instead of one who would rather have her head in a book.
“Aw, Happy Birthday, Miles!” I heard my sister squeal from my side. I swear she spoke at a pitch so high only dogs could hear. Goddess knows why she is so excited. It is only his birthday. He likely doesn’t even care; he never normally does.
As I looked up, his blue eyes were locked on me. I raised my gaze to meet his and could see his eyes shift to a darker blue.
Was that his wolf? I saw a snarl across his face as he suddenly stormed from the room. What the hell was that about?
‘Get out here.’ Miles suddenly linked me with his mind, and I have to say he sounded far from impressed. That, combined with the angry expression on his face, told me something was off. Would he have rather wished I had not come? Well, he was not the only one.
‘What?’ I questioned, completely confused. Was he annoyed over how I had dressed, too? Jeez, it was just a dress. Does it really matter? I would go home if it were.
‘Outside now.’ He demanded once more, sounding even more irritated this time, making me realize I had little choice but to follow his orders, so I snuck away from the ongoing party back to the doors of the packhouse.
I spotted Miles pacing at the bottom of the steps, his expression a mix of confusion and anger. What did he want from me? Was I just a target for his frustration? No way was I going to be that person. Just as I turned to leave, he caught my eye.
“Fucking took you long enough.” He snapped.
I frowned, unsure what this was all about, but it was making no sense to me as I looked down toward him from where I stood at the top of the packhouse steps. His blue eyes shifted to the dark blue once more, like they had inside, taking me by surprise. His wolf is clearly lingering.
“What is wrong, Miles? Do you want me to get Jordan?” I asked.
“No, I do not! I do not want anyone to know this.” He snarls, a growl slipping from his lips, though I do not know whether that was aimed at me or whether his wolf was angry at him.
“I don’t think I understand…” I began.
“You soon will.” He sneers, and I look at him in confusion. Nothing he says makes sense to me until he continues. “Only today did I realize. The thought makes me sick. Why our own moon goddess would play a trick like this on me, I don’t know. I am an Alpha. A fucking Alpha. I deserve a strong mate. A beautiful mate to be proud of. Not some feeble pathetic wallflower.”
My body trembles at his words. No. I had yet to gain my wolf. I have yet to learn this. Why… Why him, of all people? “I am your fated mate?” I question with a shaky voice. “Are you sure?”
“Are you fucking doubting me?” he yells. “And you won’t be. The moment you have your wolf, I will decide when the time is right to reject you.”
My heart twists and contorts at the thought. Rejection was meant to be the most painful thing possible. Why would he want to reject the mate chosen for him by our moon goddess? Am I truly so repulsive?
Chapter 2 Bailey
A Year Later
Here we go again, another birthday party for our soon-to-be Alpha. Not that I’m a fan of the guy. I can’t stand him, honestly. He broke my heart without even thinking twice. I still don’t get what I did to deserve that, and he never bothered to explain.
Besides all the insults, why would he even want to be with someone like me? Did I seem like Luna material to him? I had no idea what that even meant in his eyes. Probably some blonde bimbo, right? Those are the types he usually hangs out with in our pack. The ones who practically worship him and would do anything he asked. I seriously doubt they read anything beyond their school assignments.
“Bailey!” my mom yelled at me from the stairway of our family home. “Will you hurry up?!”
“Do I really need to come to the party?” I responded. “I am telling you; Miles will not be bothered if I am not there!”
“Your Aunt and Uncle will be, though. And I am not explaining to them again why you are missing,” my mom continues yelling. “Do you not realize just how many events you have missed this year, all because you have your head in a book?”
“Yeah Bai-Bai. Such a geek. No wonder you have no friends.” My sister Morgan giggles from outside my bedroom door.
“Piss off.” I hissed. “I have friends.”
I stormed from my room and down the stairs toward my waiting family. I planned to greet the birthday boy, not that he would care. I know that he would rather not see me at all. And then I would sneak home.
“Ew, are you wearing that?” Morgan asked.
I looked down at my skinny black trousers and white tank top. Great. I can’t win. Nothing I wear is approved of by my sister, evidently named the fashion queen without my knowledge. Oh well, I am dressed and wearing it. I think it looked good with my chunky black sandals.
I scowled at my sister and walked out of the door. “Are we going or not?” I snapped at them all, truly unable to wait for the following month when I left to go to university. Get away from them and this pack!
The party was well underway when we arrived, music pounding from the speakers as couples made out in every available space, so I averted my eyes as we walked through the corridors of the packhouse to the lounge, where we would no doubt find Miles’s reigning over his people. Being all important, like he was partial to considering himself.
‘Why are you here?’ Miles’s voice filled my mind before I entered the room behind my parents.
Great. ‘I didn’t get a choice. Trust me, I would rather not be.’ I snapped back.
I was getting more than a little tired of how he treated me. Yes, he planned on rejecting me. I decided I was not for him, but he could have left it. I didn’t need to be treated like I was some social pariah because he decided I was not right for him. I do not think I deserved that. I had endured enough bullying throughout high school.
‘Oh. Excuse me? Are you implying you were not going to come to the party of your next Alpha?’ Miles links with some serious attitude.
‘Miles, you just asked why I had bothered coming. Now you are asking if I was not going to come? Make your mind up.’ I argued.
‘Remember who I am Bailey. You are not above me. Never will be. Could have been equal to me at most had I seen you as suitable to be my mate, but no. You were beneath that honor.’ He sneers.
I felt anger racing through me. ‘And you think I would not have rejected you?’ I snapped, returning to the exit, not wanting to be here anymore. Until I felt a hand grabbing the back of my tank top and yanking me back.
My eyes darted upward to see the dark eyes of Miles. Sneering down at me. Our pack’s upcoming Alpha. The most arrogant man I think I have ever met. One, thankfully, I did not have to be mates with any longer as the stupid fucker had chosen to reject his fated mate before even giving her a chance.
“Going somewhere, Bailey?” he asked, his voice full of spite.
“Well, I do believe you asked me why I was here, so I assumed you wanted me to leave.” I told him.
Miles bows his head down to level with mine; he inhales deeply like he still enjoys my scent. He has done this numerous times lately, which I find quite bizarre. But I ignore him as he tilts his head to look at me.
“Hmm, I think my mom and dad may have something to say if you leave. Their clever little Bailey. Heaven forbids.” He presses his forehead against mine. “Stay away from me, and do not spoil my fun.”
I shake my head in disbelief at him as he stalks away. Did he even think I would be going near him for a moment if I could avoid it? I would rather be anywhere but near him!
“Bailey, why are you harassing my friend?” I heard my brother, Jordan, demand as he suddenly approached, causing many people to turn around and look at me. Wonderful. There's nothing like starting pack gossip, is there? I am sure Miles would appreciate that!
“I wasn’t harassing him; he came to speak to me. Asking why I had come.” I told him, and my brother laughed. He is as much an idiot as Miles. Any of my friends who have big brothers hate how protective they are.
Me? No, my big brother is the one leading all the bullying and being a total dick to me. He finds great embarrassment in that his younger sister is far from being one of the popular groups and is, in his words, ‘far too into her books’. I think, in all honesty, my entire family found me, in one way or another, a huge embarrassment.
“Well, he has a point. Not like you will be joining in with the celebrations. You will probably be sitting in a quiet corner somewhere reading,” he teases.
“Well, it is certainly more intellectually pleasing than any of you would be,” I smirked at him as I walked away from my brother, who was standing and looking confused.
I am sure he had no clue what I meant. The scary thing is he will be the next pack Beta. Heaven helps our pack. Between him and Miles, they only had one brain cell, and that was one that they shared. I am sure of it! And even then, I think it was rechargeable and started losing power and knowledge rapidly! They only graduated high school because they paid people for their work.
As I snuck away from the busy lounge, to the top of the stairway, where I hoped to hide out for as long as possible, I heard footsteps behind me. I quickly turned, hoping it was someone on their way to their bedroom or even one of the spare bathrooms on this floor. But sadly, luck was not on my side tonight. Miles was following me. Eyebrows raised and looking quite irritated.
“I want to talk to you,” he demanded.
“You asked me to go away a minute ago, didn’t you?” I asked him.
“Don’t think so. I think it was more of a case of why you were here,” Miles says with a smirk. He was sitting on the top step with me.
“Miles, you have the whole pack here for your birthday. I am sure whatever you need to speak to me about can wait.” I shrugged, desperately craving peace, which would be difficult considering the pounding beat of the music playing.
“No. Why didn’t you tell me you were leaving?” he questions, angry that I had not let him know.
Why would I let him know?
“Why would I? We aren’t friends, Miles. You also are not my Alpha yet. It was arranged with my parents, me and your dad, as Alpha.” I explained to him, unsure why this would even bother him. If anything, I think he would be glad to get rid of me.
“You are going away though,” he murmurs.
“That is generally what happens when you go to college or university. Yeah,” I said with another shrug.
“There wasn’t one closer to home?” he hisses. “Because it seems to me that you picked the one furthest away.”
“What does it matter to you? I feel hated. I won't be here; You get your wish of being rid of me.” I snapped, truly sick of him trying to dictate what I should and shouldn’t be doing.
I had worked hard in school so I could do this. My parents had spoken to my aunt and uncle, the Luna and Alpha of our pack, to give me special permission to go to a university out of state to study, saying it was what I had dreamed of.
I had nothing holding me back. And, because Miles did not want me for his mate or his Luna, I truly did not. Not that any of them knew of that. That was our secret.
Despite the pull to him as my mate, I still found him truly repulsive since my wolf arrived. He sickened me. However, the pain when he slept with the many she-wolves that visited his bed made it even easier to detest the man that he had become.
I still had no clue what I had done to deserve this treatment from this man other than not being one of the popular groups. But I knew I deserved better than him.
Miles glanced at me momentarily. A thoughtful look passed over his face, almost caring, before a hardness replaced it. “That much is true. No more having to see the disappointing failure the moon goddess made of mating me to you. At least not for a few years. Who knows, perhaps you will meet someone while there. I suggest you do. That way, you won’t have to return because I, as Alpha, will look for my Luna.”
“Miles, I do not care if you find someone else,” I told him that I would stand and head home, not wishing to spend another moment in the same place as him.
Just as I was about to step away, he caught my hand and pulled me back, making me sit next to him again on the top step of the first-floor landing in our packhouse. “You always think you’re so right, don’t you, Bailey? You claim it doesn’t bother you? We’ll see about that. This is going to happen on my terms. I, Miles Davenport, reject you, Bailey West, as my destined mate,” he started, and my mind started spinning as his words hit me. The shock and the unbearable hurt of what was unfolding were becoming overwhelming.
Chapter 3 Bailey
Three Years Later
I drove the long road down to the pack. I wouldn't say I liked this drive. It was like returning to hell for me. Lotus Shadow Pack. My very own version of hell. Though three years away, studying had been truly amazing. Transforming myself into the woman I should always have been. Confident. Self-assured. Brave. Just me. And now a fully qualified teacher.
As a she-wolf, you spend many years of your life being told your focus is finding your fated mate, settling down with them, and creating a strong mate bond. A love. A family.
Once I had come to accept that my naïve teenage dreams would never surface, thanks to the moon goddess pairing me with a mate so incapable of loving anyone other than himself, I decided that my focus would be my career.
My education had always been something I took great pride in. I loved to learn, and I had decided that I wanted to pass that gift along. I no longer cared what others thought of me. And, while at university, it felt so wonderful to be surrounded by others who felt the same way. I finally felt like I fit in somewhere.
And that allowed me to become the person I was meant to be. However, I had to return to my pack at their orders. The agreement was that I would return home once I had completed my degree. Unless, of course, I had found my fated mate. But I knew within my heart that was never to happen.
For, my fated mate sat at home. Lording it over our pack. Acting like he was the best thing. Sleeping with any she-wolf that came near him, from what I heard, having rejected me.
I pulled up at our guarded pack gates. Harley, one of our pack warriors on guard duty, stepped forward to my car window. “ID” he ordered.
I frowned at him. I have not been asked for ID before when returning home, even in all the times I have visited home, though, in all fairness, those visits have been few and far between. My visits were only when they were required of me. I had grown to loathe this place, and returning had become less of a priority when I was away.
“Harley, it is me. Bailey.” I explained, trying not to smile at his mistake.
Harley looked at me closer. “Shit. Sorry, Bailey, I didn’t recognize you there. You changed your hair. And you aren’t wearing your glasses. You look good,” he says with a shrug, quickly looking away, clearly embarrassed by his faux pas.
I smirk at his response. Yes, my hair is somewhat tamer than it used to be. The curls straightened out, and my hair was now neat and sleek down my back. The glasses I had worn for reading had been long gone. I was having my eyes fixed with laser eye surgery while away. Plus, I now wore a little simple make-up to accentuate my features. It's nice to know somebody has noticed a difference.
“No problem. You still need ID?” I asked him.
He grins at me. “I think I know who you are. Nice to see you,” he nods at me in acknowledgment as the gate opens for me. “Maybe I can catch you around while you are back,” he adds as I begin to drive away.
I smiled in response; nothing would stop me from catching up with any guy I wanted to know. Not that I was bothered right now, but it was not like I had a fated mate to wait for any longer. And it wasn’t like Miles was making a point of staying single.
Every time I had returned home, he had had a different she-wolf on his arm. Parading them through the pack like a prized possession, only to have traded her in by the time I returned on my next visit. He was turning into quite the lothario. And quite a joke in my eyes.
I set off along our sweet old pack's quiet, familiar roads. The evening sun was settling in the sky as I moved my car down the route to my family home. No doubt my mom would be there waiting for me, perhaps my dad, if he was in from work by now.
My brother and sister, I was unsure. They still lived at home with my parents but were back and forth to friends' houses, and my brother was looking to move into the Beta suite in the packhouse soon enough in preparation for taking on the role of my father when the time came. Either way, they rarely rushed home to see me when they knew I was returning. I don’t think seeing me was at the top of their priority list.
I pulled my car up on the street before my familiar family home. I could not believe I was home. I was stuck back here. The dread within my stomach churned heavily at the prospect of many years stuck here.
Miserable, with no way out, now my fated mate had rejected me. Not that anyone other than Miles and I knew of that. No. He had decided he would be considered weak if others knew an Alpha had gone against the powerful Moon Goddess’s choice. So, this was our secret. Or he would make me pay in ways I did not want to imagine.
And, in all honesty, I did not want to think of it. He had allowed me to go away to do my degree. I was doing the final bit of convincing when my uncle, the current Alpha, Miles’s father, and my parents were on the fence. Or, so he said. How true that was. I would never likely know the truth, but it had been for that reason, and I had chosen to do as he had asked.
If he had done the things he said, he would have allowed me to fulfil my dream of gaining my teaching degree away from the pack. To enable me to be just me, not the daughter of the pack Beta. And I have thrived because of it. But now, I had to return to where I belonged. And, while I may have gained my degree, I had no real prospects. I was likely stuck here.
I stepped from the car, determined more than ever to find work, as I heard my mom’s voice. “Bailey!” she greeted me from the porch steps with a big smile. “You look beautiful, sweetheart.”
I smiled back at her as I moved toward the front door. Only to see Miles leaving the house next door to ours.
Could I have timed my arrival any worse?
His eyes met mine, giving me a dark stare before looking at my mom. “Hi Aunt Brianna. You didn’t say she was home today.”
Mom smiled at Miles like she thought the world of him, though most of the time, she generally did. “Ah, I think it slipped my mind. Bailey is home for good now, Miles. How wonderful is that?”
Once more, Miles gave me a dark stare. “Hmmm. Truly wonderful,” he said with some serious contempt in his voice.
‘You understand, you stay out of my way unless I say otherwise?’ Mile's mind links me as he moves toward his car.
“Are you not going to speak to him Bai?” Mom tries. “He will be Alpha this time next year, you know?”
“Oh, it doesn’t matter, Aunt Brianna. Bailey will be excused this time. I am sure she is tired from her drive back home. But no doubt I will be seeing her around. And yes, she will have to get used to me as her senior. Her Alpha,” he says with a sneer, and my stomach twists into knots at his words. I don’t think I can stay here. I need to find work away from my pack so I can move away from my psychotic Alpha and ex-mate!
